I'm thinking

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The alarm goes off.

I wake up and roll around in bed for a while. I'm thinking that I am still sleepy, but I should get up anyway.

My dog starts whining to go for a walk. I'm thinking that I should take her out, otherwise I will end up with a nice souvenir on my carpet.

I take her for a walk. The air is cold and fresh. I'm thinking about what my manager said yesterday, and whether I should say something back or not.

I go back home, shave and take my shower. I'm thinking about what I should have for breakfast.

I am eating breakfast: Scrambled eggs with goat cheese and sun-dried tomatoes and a slice of french toast with butter. I'm thinking that there will be traffic on my way to work and that I should wait for an hour or so to avoid it, but I leave anyway.

I am driving to work. Everybody else is. I'm thinking that my boss might be already in and that he will probably stop by my office and chat as he does every morning.

I arrive at work. My boss is not in yet.

I reply few emails and start writing some documents. It's boring but I write them anyway. I'm thinking about lunch and wondering which of the five cafeteria meals I will have today.

I have a meeting. We never accomplished anything in these meetings. I am thinking that I should skip it and get some work done, but it's not about what you get done. So I attend the meeting anyway.

It's finally lunch time. I sit with some coworkers eating and chatting. I'm thinking that I still have lots of stuff to finish before I go home and excuse myself to go back to work.

I go back to work. I need to finish these documents before heading home. I'm thinking that there may be traffic on my way back today.

I finish the documents and email them to my boss. I'm thinking that I should take off before he reads them and replies.

I'm driving home. Everyone else is. I'm thinking about my dog at home, and whether she finished chewing the carpet, the couch, or her own tail.

I get home and take my dog for a walk. I'm thinking about tonight's episode of Lost, and whether I should have pizza or chicken while watching it.

I watch Lost and eat pasta. The episode is boring, but I watch it anyway. I'm thinking that I should open my laptop and browse the web for a while.

I go online and read the news. There is nothing new. There is never anything new, but I read the news anyway.

I feel accomplished. I'm thinking that I should check my email in case there are any urgent messages that need my attention. There has never been urgent messages, but I open Outlook anyway.

I read my email. I'm thinking that this way, I don't have to start my day tomorrow by reading and answering them.

I write replies to some emails. I'm thinking that many of them didn't need to be answered, read, or sent in the first place. But I feel productive.

I go to the gym and play squash with a friend. I'm thinking that I am not thinking when I play squash.

I go home, grab a snack and watch The Tonight Show. I'm thinking that what Jay Leno says is not funny, but the audience is laughing, so I laugh anyway.

It's midnight so I have to go to bed. I am not sleepy but I'm thinking that's when people should go to sleep, so I go to bed anyway.

I set my alarm and slide under the covers.

I grab a book and read a couple of pages. It's about the Zen mind and how to live in the moment. I'm thinking that I am always living in the moment, it's just that the moment is always few hours late.

I close the book and turn off the light. I'm thinking that I can't wait for tomorrow to come.

Something different may happen tomorrow.Hopefully not...

 

[February 2005]